Tonight while sweating profusely in downward dog at yoga, my instructor said something that really stuck with me. She said something that forced my brain to do the opposite of focus on the position I was in and instead to focus on my life. “What you feed will grow”, which was meant to be applied to our yoga practice but instead applied to my life and probably your life too.
The things we want in life are like plants, they need water and sunlight to grow. They’re like a car; they need gas to propel forward. A child cannot grow into an adult without the proper nourishment and love. I don’t know why it took me twenty-five years to put two and two together but tonight I finally did. My yoga instructor continued to talk and compare pushing yourself in yoga to your life. In yoga, you’re never going to be able to move to the next version of a position if you don’t focus and practice the beginning and transitioning stages of it. You have to push yourself and tell yourself that you’re going to do a little more each time you practice, until eventually you’re completely upside down in headstand, which is just one of many difficult positions and happens to be my ultimate yoga goal.
What you feed you grow, this blog being the perfect example. I started my little blog as a hobby with the aspiration that one day, maybe I could turn it into a career. I started writing about a year and a half ago and at first I was really into it. I had talked to other bloggers seeking advice. I had made a twitter account, and turned my personal Instagram account into an account dedicated to my blog. I had put so much time and effort into making my blog look the way I wanted it to and writing posts that interested me and that I thought others would enjoy reading. I was feeding it and it was growing. People I knew as acquaintances in my hometown would come up to me and tell me their boyfriend’s little sister loved reading it, and so on and so forth. I was receiving positive feedback and I was proud of myself, until one day I started slacking.
Last year I had all of these dreams and plans of traveling, specifically to go backpacking in Southeast Asia. I had just gotten home from spending a year in Australia and I was deeply motivated to continue to feed my travel bug but it didn’t turn out the way I had thought it would. I came home broke so I had to find a job immediately and I had to buy a car to get me to that job so I could make money to eventually travel with. I started to accumulate bills, and I even slowly accumulated a boyfriend (to whom I am still very much in love with). I saved a bunch of money but decided to pay off my student debt instead, which felt absolutely amazing but also saddened me that my travel funds had been depleted. After paying off my student debt at the end of the summer, I had decided it was time to make a change and transition into the corporate world, which if you read one of my last posts you will know that I just quit said corporate world. Working a nine to five job made me miserable and depressed, which left me feeling like my life was over, which ultimately resulted in my travel plans and The Lovely Nomad (my blog) being neglected.
I have already started taking the steps that my yoga instructor was talking about in terms of feeding what you want in order to make it grow. I have quit my job, I am focusing on travelling and The Lovely Nomad, and I have switched to a more positive attitude. Anyone can do this in their own life and you probably already do it without knowing, whether you do it in a positive way or a negative way. It is kind of related to the book ‘The Secret’, where anyone can have anything they want in life if they focus their positive energy on it, yikes… did I just give away the secret? I think we all know this to be true deep down but some of us find it harder than others to actually live out. I am on and off with this practice and I am going to try and remain on. I know what I want and I know what I have to do to get there. Instead of being negative and focusing on what I don’t have, I am going to focus on what I do have and where I want to be and I know you can too.
What you feed will grow, what you feed will grow… make this your new mantra and watch your life expand into what you want the most. Also, as a side note… headstand is really, really hard and is going to take me a long time to accomplish.